Thursday, March 18, 2010

Numb

Well.. I was riding in the car with my son and the song, "Numb," from Linkin Park came on the radio. He turned up the volume... as I listened the waterworks once again began.

"Numb"

I'm tired of being what you want me to be

Feeling so faithless lost under the surface

Don't know what you're expecting of me

Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes

(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)

Every step that I take is another mistake to you

(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)



[Chorus]

I've become so numb I can't feel you there

Become so tired so much more aware

I'm becoming this all I want to do

Is be more like me and be less like you



Can't you see that you're smothering me

Holding too tightly afraid to lose control

Cause everything that you thought I would be

Has fallen apart right in front of you

(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)

Every step that I take is another mistake to you

(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)

And every second I waste is more than I can take



[Chorus]

I've become so numb I can't feel you there

Become so tired so much more aware

I'm becoming this all I want to do

Is be more like me and be less like you



And I know

I may end up failing too

But I know

You were just like me with someone disappointed in you



[Chorus]

I've become so numb I can't feel you there

Become so tired so much more aware

I'm becoming this all I want to do

Is be more like me and be less like you



[Chorus]

I've become so numb I can't feel you there

I'm tired of being what you want me to be

I've become so numb I can't feel you there

I'm tired of being what you want me to be


4 comments:

  1. What a powerful message. I havent heard that song before...I never listened to the words. Do you think your son feels this way? Is this why the waterworks started?

    I know my situation is different from yours, but I think most children feel this way regardless of circumstances as a teen. Then as soon as you grow up a bit and learn a bit more, you realize your parents were right about a lot of things. You appreciate their help, love, support, and guidance. You realize they just wanted to BEST for you and tried to lead you down the right path.

    I can tell you are an EXCELLENT mother. You put forth a lot of heart and effort towards helping your son.

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  2. Thanks Krissa. I am actually training an adult male with Asperger's Syndrome. He blames his mother for being too loving and accepting for his problems. I guess this is the path of the parent. You're damned either way until your kids gets a clue. lol

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  3. I swear you have a twin out there C

    http://leanbodiesconsulting.com/undercover-pro/category/recent/3/

    I was reading this and thought "Holy crap!" - if it's not your twin . . .

    then I just don't know.

    Are you still writing at VQ3 or did you completely shut it down?

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  4. Oh & in iTunes, if you go to podcasts . . .
    search for Zencast.
    I think you might enjoy it.

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